About

Astra.

Obviously, that’s not my real name.  I’ve decided to omit my real name and the real names of anyone mentioned in my blog for privacy reasons.  Also, because I’m suicidal, I don’t want anyone I know to stumble across this and attempt to intervene.

The postings contained on this site are a way for me to speak about how I really feel.  Things I can’t say to anyone I know.  Things I can’t say aloud.  They are 100% my own thoughts and stories.  Mostly, it is a way to catalog the final days of my life.  I want those who claim to care about me to understand, after I’m gone, why I needed to take my own life.

Why is my blog public?
I’ve never been so deluded to believe that no one understands how I feel.  But the same can’t be said for everyone else out there.  My blog is public to remind others that they are not alone.  That the severity of bi-polar depression is very real and can be hidden.  There are many signs that people overlook.  Do not misunderstand, I have no desire to be helped anymore.  However, maybe someone else out there does want help.  Maybe my silly words can help them.

Thanks for stopping by.
I hope that you, dear reader, will never feel as alone as I do.