Obviously, that’s not my real name. I’ve decided to omit my real name and the real names of anyone mentioned in my blog for privacy reasons. Also, because I’m suicidal, I don’t want anyone I know to stumble across this and attempt to intervene.
The postings contained on this site are a way for me to speak about how I really feel. Things I can’t say to anyone I know. Things I can’t say aloud. They are 100% my own thoughts and stories. Mostly, it is a way to catalog the final days of my life. I want those who claim to care about me to understand, after I’m gone, why I needed to take my own life.
Why is my blog public?
I’ve never been so deluded to believe that no one understands how I feel. But the same can’t be said for everyone else out there. My blog is public to remind others that they are not alone. That the severity of bi-polar depression is very real and can be hidden. There are many signs that people overlook. Do not misunderstand, I have no desire to be helped anymore. However, maybe someone else out there does want help. Maybe my silly words can help them.
Thanks for stopping by.
I hope that you, dear reader, will never feel as alone as I do.