I haven’t been updating lately.  I spend almost all my time with Doug lately.  Almost everything I do involves him.  I hate that I make myself so available for him.  But I can’t help it.  He’s so wonderful and he makes me feel better about myself.  He defends and protects me.  So, someone tell me again… how are we not a couple?  We would be amazing together.  We have a lot of the same opinions and morals and principles.  Even our “religious” beliefs are the same and trust me, that’s a rare thing.  I feel like I’m growing to be a part of his family.  Yes, I’ve met them all except a half-sister and his mother.  Chances are, I’ll never meet his mother and that’s fine with me.  I hate that woman almost as much as he does.  His grandmother told me all about her and the terrible things she did to her children when they were growing up.

I don’t know why I’m talking about his family.  He just means a lot to me and his enemies are my enemies.

My BFF thinks that someday he’ll wake up and realize what’s right in front of him.

I’m not so positive about that.